Monday, January 26, 2009

I'm So Beat and I Love It!

I have this fantasy when I'm running and listening to my ipod that I can play the guitar like the bands I'm listening to.  This morning I was imagining myself sitting around a campfire, rockin' out on my guitar and singing songs from: White Stripes, Black Keys, Fugazi, The Mae Shi, Smog, PJ Harvey, Queens of the Stoneage, Rodrigo and Gabriela, Yeah Yeah Yeahs (Karen O), and 16 Horsepower . . . songs that it would take me a decade to learn how to play . . . except for Rodrigo and Gabriela, it would take me a lifetime to learn how to play like them.  Smog - I could probably play like him in a few years, if I would just practice.  But it hurst my fingers, "like a motherf*cker," as Sharon says.

I have this fantasy of being this fabulously awesomely cool person and I was laughing at myself this morning because the reality is that I regularly fall asleep at 7:30, like last night with Cecilia.  Well not exactly WITH Cecilia because I'm pretty sure that I fell asleep BEFORE Cecilia.  And I live in Palisade, which is a small farming community where the owl that nested in the awning of the Dentists office the day the city workers scared it out of the Christmas tree when the were taking down the lights, made the 2nd page of the Palisade Tribune.  The owl was big news.  Which was awesome because the girls and I were walking by and the city worker showed us the owl.  It was snowy whitey-grey and small and scared.  The city worker (which isn't a city worker, he's a Town worker because Palisade is a Town, not a City) so the Town worker told us that he never goes anywhere without his digital camera and that he probably takes about 100 pictures a day!  Now that's love.  He sees so many groovy things in his everyday work life that he takes 100 pictures a day!  Wow!

At the 2000 census, Palisade's population was 2,579.  That's a small, tiny town.  Before Christmas, Francesca, Cecilia and I rescued Cakestar, a beautiful brown stick horse from the Migrant Center and since then, Cakestar has been photographed tied up outside Mumzel's, the Antique Store/Coffee Shop.  The photograph is blown up and hanging in Mumzel's so now, everywhere we go, people ask Francesca, "How is Cakestar?"  Francesca is the rock star, not me.

I can go for a morning run from my front door and not have to drive to any trail.  The Riverbend Park is .75 miles away and it is beautiful.  I can run right next to the river and aside from seeing the geese and ducks, I've even seen a family of foxes down there one morning.  The girls love Riverbend Park.  We meet friends there every Thursday at 10:30am.  Not to play on the playground, although we do that on occasion, but the most fun is to explore the wild places.  When the pond first froze over, we spend hours throw/skipping rocks across the frozen pond, to hear the sound it made.  We had to drag the kids away.  There's also a boat launch at the park that makes an excellent sandy beach.  We went two weeks ago and the girls climbed a steep embankment and pretended they were in "fairyland" or "fairy island," or something.  They love the cat tails.  They pick them apart and make "fairy dust" everywhere, which is actually quite a mess and would reek havoc on allergies, but its too much fun to resist.

Anyway - I'm totally okay with the fact that I can't play the guitar like Rodrigo y Gabriela, and I can't stay awake past 8:00 most nights.  When I was single and before having children, I remember sitting around with my friend Amy, looking at a Christmas card one of her friends sent her with her photograph on it.  She said her friend used to be the coolest and now look at her . . . Matching Sweater Christmas Cards.  But it happens.  Its happened to me, too.  I rarely have time to even think about what I look like before stepping out the door - I'm too busy!  And I like that.  It makes me smile just thinking about it - and my smile probably has chunks of food in my teeth, too.  And finally, a huge shout out to Eric, for  putting all that awesome music on my ipod in September . . . and I'm finally getting around to listening to it!  Thanks Eric!  You rock!   

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